Updates . .

Lets start off with some updates that has been going on . .

taking over of registry has more or less been completed . . slowly getting the hang of stuff . . as well as getting the hang of "arrows" being shot at you . .

really looking forward to wednesdays and fridays coz those are the days where i get to go on dispatch, meaning i get to get outta camp and go places. Used to hate it when i am being tasked dispatch when i was still in the old camp . . now i kinda liked it, coz i don't have to stay in the office, it can get rather boring at times :P

i duno, i am getting tired of waking up at around 5+ each day to go to camp, but somehow or rather the way of how the others are spending their nites kinda deterr me from staying in . .
this is one of the ways on how they spend their nite in camp,

6.00 - knock off from work
- go take a bath and have meal
- read books / watch tv
- bath again if necessary
- sleeping at around 10+ - 11+

hmm . . a bit on the dull side dun you agree, they dun do sports . . which is kind of a turn-off for me, when i was back in the old camp, me and my frens would change into admin attire and head for the courts at 5.00pm for a game of soccer or basketball . . but here, i find that no one does this animore . . sigh.

but sooner or later, i am going to stay in, cannot be i keep on staying out while the others stay in i guess . . equality is what we are toking here folks, hee :) Guess i have to "bend them to my will" and make them do some sports ba . . Hee :)

oh ya . . just started to built up my strike gundam which i got from ah cheng a couple of weeks ago . . might post some pics of the progress of the completion of my model :) as well as the wounds that are inflicted during the process . . wahahaha,
lets just pray that i wun get severe wounds this time round . . i know "zero accident" is impossible for my case here . . Wahaha.

oh ya below are some pics ah cheng took when he was in taiwan for his holis . . oh man, how i wished i was there, sigh . . it would simply be a wonderland for me i guess to be surround by all those gundam models that had been done up soOOoooOoooo nicely, wished i could do it too . .
i am still stuck with the gundam markers . . wonder when am i going to move to the next level with air-brush and model putty ??? Only time will tell then . . Hee ;P


tks for sharing the pics cheng :)

well i got a terrible bad news to share . .
whats happening to all the anime out there ??
blood+ like stopped completely . .
dun tell the fan-sub are going to drop it ???!!! :'(
still waiting for blood+ 33 to come out . .
praying hard that nothing funny happens to this anime.
so is my zoids genesis, and my MARS also . . wats happening to the anime nowadayz ??

i am official suffering from anime withdrawal right now . . . Urgh !!!


RT

I am Bored . . .

Life has basically become quite boring for me now . .

i duno whats wrong but the perk in my life just ain't there anymore ??
i wonder why that's so . .
maybe because i need to find a new objective in this journey we call life i guess . .

For the past 3 years its all about having fun and enjoying the life in uni and also for that expensive piece of paper called degree . .

right now life has come to a standstill . . everyday is doing the same work over and over again . . i need some challenge in life, what can i do . . i am an Aries after all . . maybe i shud take up some language or pick up some skills during this boring 6 months back in camp. . . lets see what i could do . . . hmmm . . . hmmm . . .


studying my japanese again ?? . .
but its so hard to pick up the book once again . . especially without sensei around and also pepz around that speaks this language . . haizz

pick up java / flash ??? . . .
seems interesting enuff . . but somehow it just doesn't appeal to me right now

brush up on my pool skills ??
since there is an enlistee mess in the camp right now which houses a pool table . . hmmm . .

there is an emptiness that resides whenever i call it an end to the day . . . and sometimes i look back on the day and ask myself . . what have i really achieve in the day ?? did i make a difference to the day that i have just spend ?? Have i done justice to myself ?? I duno . . i can't tell . .

hmm . . i wonder what i want outta life right now ??
i did consider saving a lump sum from my NS allowance and then just go japan and see the world for what it is right now . . but i dun think even with saving up i can truly enjoy myself . .
i tend to have a shopaholic in me . . especially when it comes to anime, manga and models . . LoLz . . there's no holding me back :P

My dream is to have a room . . if not a glass cabinet on the wall in my future home all stuffed with models i have collected thru'out my time. Its an expensive hobby many people told me but you have to follow ur heart and do the stuff you like right ?? Most of the time, we aren't doing stuff that we truly enjoy but when the time comes where you have a chance to indulge in what you truly enjoy . . you should go all out to enjoy am i not right ? I think alot of people out there would be agreeing with me ba ?? Hee :)

haizz . . i dun even know what i am writing here . . am i grumbling or am i just sharing something . . hmmm . . . or am i simply lost here ??? I guess i need to find out the answer for myself . . i need some directions.

Oh ya . . its more or less confirm i am going to australia for an overseas excercise this coming october to november . . want any stuff any one . . but i ain't going sdyney or melbourne, its just a quiet town in northern australia called "rockhampton" i think its spelled this way. I see what i'll bring back when the time draws nearer . .

142 more working days to ORD . . thats like 30 weeks . . which is like 6-7 months . .
Oh Man . . this sucks big times (-.-'')


RT

Just Let it go and Move On . .

In the last post i said i didn't want to share any more bad news but sorry to said, it just keeps coming again and again and again . . haizz

just let me grumble a bit and then i'll move on . . .

I have more or less come to terms with my grades le, can't be stuck wondering where i went wrong anymore . . life passes by without waiting for you .

But ........................

the email reply i got from my Prof ain't this sat wasn't that encourging at all . .
and when i tot i have left it behind for good . . it had to come back to "haunt" me . .

i wrote in my email that i was to seek his advice regarding my grades and i wish to appeal my results . . but his reply was as straightforward as . . just go thru the normal proccedures for the appeal of results ??!!

Totally nonchalant ???!!!

Was i too "abstract" in my words ?? Or is he simply bo chup cos i am now an ex-FYP student who he is done and over with ??? Urgh . . Man, I am Pissed Off @#$%^& . . (>_<'')

Anyways, i have decided to go ahead with the appeal le . . .

Suddenly feel that is hardwork always requitted ??
Is Effort always rewarded ??
So how do you define hardwork and how much hardwork is enuff ???
Hardwork is only felt worth when you are being appreciated for it i guess . .
if no one appreciates it . . its basically you have just done a lot of work thats all i guess . .

Haizz, this is getting on my nerves . . have to forget this now and just move on with my life, guess its this way . . once heard a quote by someone i forgot who but it goes like this . .

"do not stun away from the rocks that life throws at you,
they will be your stepping stones to the next level"

How very true indeed . . . Haizz . .
Lets just move on . . all this grumbling and complaining ain't gonna make me feel any much better.

As they say . . "when you have hit rock bottom, you can't go any lower"
so i guess it will on get better from now on right ?? I hope it does . .
hmmm, today alot of quotes . . LoLz


tks for all the encourageing MSN message that all is sending me . .
i'll get over it . . i always do . .
dun fret . Mao Mao will be back to the cheerful me soon enuff . .

maybe if let me struck toto ??
Wahahaha . . i be happy instantly . . LoLz
Jus Kiddin . . LoLz . . but if it happen i dun mind at all thou . . Wahahahaha.


No more bad news from now on . . Hee

oh ya .. one last bad news, seriously it is . .
SCV needs to order a package for this world cup ????!!!!! and what am i going to do with my basic sports channel ??

this i bery "bei song liao hor" . . wahahahhaa =p

RT

Rock Bottom . . But picking up . .

Haiz, actually wrote quite a lot of stuff last night, but when i tried to publish it said got error and there goes my entire blog entry last night. Kinda pissed me off . .

lets see if i can recall majority of what i wanted to share last night . . ..
hmmmm . . . . .

ok, i was rambling about a show i saw last sat on cable tv, its about this yearly competiton held in Japan for their junior high childrens. It was a race consisting of 30 persons and they had to bind their feets to the one on the left and right. These 30 kids would then have to race a total distane of 50m in the shortest time possible and they managed to do it . . all 30 of them, without falling down somemore . . impressive.

But what really touched me was how they view this competition. The losing team were all crying their hearts out, it was the simplest form of emotions. Its just a match and yet they felt like they have let everyone down, their teacher, their family and themselves. They really took their stuff seriously, their urge to win was clearly evident and yet so raw. For goodness sake they are only 12 yrs old and yet their urge to excel in the stuff the set out to do is so straightforward, there's no hiding it.

A tot came to me then, have i have this strong urge to win something or to achieve something that badly that it really really hurts when i am unable to do so ?? Or would i have this chance to experience this kinda feeling???

ok back to some really disappointing stuff . . .
here's what happen . .

it was the afternoon of 06/06/06 when i was doing my work in the office.
and then i rcv a sms from a fren telling me the honours that were conferred were out . .
i was shocked and yet excited . . the result that i have been waiting for 3 longs years.

and when i did get my result, i was a bit disappointed, i got only a 3rd class honours. But i pretty much have guess i should be around there, since i "tabao" 2 modules in uni, scrap thru a couple and the rest were all consistent Cs. . . actually i almost came to term with this fact of the honour class . .

however, the big shell shock came when i found out my FYP was only a C+, at that point of the time, the blood started rising and man was i infuriated. I mean its ok i got Cs for my cores but to get a C+ for my fyp was totally absurb . . maybe its my ego but i just can't take this fact and swallow it down my throat. The times i have spend on this FYP was much more than that i spend on my other modules, the time spend reading thesis papers, the time spend reading lib books, the time spend on report, the time spend on data gathering and analysis and also the time i spend with my profs discussing my results. What i couldnt accept was that i got a C+ . . i was thinking to myself the whole time that i would have gotten at least a B or B- but to get such a grade ?? I was lost and stunned at that point, suddenly nothing around me meant anything . . it has been a long long time since i got so pissed off . . acutally i dun think there wasn't any incidents that pissed me off more that this . . their difference was like between 5 and 10 . .

wats more infuriating is the fact that when i was discussing my results with my profs, they were like giving me this "u have done enuff to secure a decent grade" type of feeling and i felt all my work was worthwhile. But to have a result like this would be the last time on my mind . . has my so called hardwork betray me ?? or Have my trust been misplaced ?? I DUNO what to do, nor what to say . . but the fact is the fact . . but am i just supposed to accept this because its placed before me ?? I really duno any more. . . but what i need now is an answer, someone to tell me what and where in the world went wrong for me . . even if i can't change my results i still need to know this.

PS: prof hasn't replied the mail i sent him ?? dun tell me he aint around ?? gonna call him tomorrow and trash it out . . hopefully no one gets injured in the process . . just kiddin.

Luckily, someone cheer me up last night with lotsa encouragement and a piece of good news, you know who you are and i am grateful for that . . and i was the one consoling u earlier . . wat a twist of fate . . =p

PS: i dun want to annouce publicly ur name without ur approval .. :)
but you also added some pressure on your bdae gift . . now what am i going to get for u ???

now thats so much for last night's entry . .

something good today for a change . .
~ recieved a call from cheng saying he got the gundam that i wanted from taiwan . .
~ falchon hanger replied saying they have reserved a macross (stealth version) for me, hurray !

till next time . . hopefully it aint sad news again . . haizz . .

RT