Contemplating About Life . .

Hmm . . another monotonous week for me . .
** just lamenting that NS is wasting my life away for me now . . hee :)
Just ignore me on this folks . . LoLz (^-^)

But this week was actually quite enriching for me . . both intellectually and physically :)
This thursday i was in debate session that 2 of my camp mates were engaging in.

Ok don't ask me what we were debating on . . coz we were digressing away from topic all the time . . HaHa . . But it was truly enjoyable.

What did we tok about that nite . . hmm . . let me try to recall . .

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OK, we were toking about self-worth and how you rate your own self-worth which brings us to a question of how actually do we rate our self-worth? . . . do you based it on a belief that you hold on to or is your self-worth based on some abilities or skills you possess.

Well, doesn''t this ring an alarm somewhere deep in the back of your head . . hahaha.
But whats intriguing is that sometimes we are doing this unconciously even thou we are not having a clear picture about this . . imagine you are studying for the exams and you got a grade.
Isn't the expected grades you wished to obtain analogous to how much your "self-worth" is ?? . .

Just a point to consider, if you think you have studied or prepared alot for the papers and the grades didn't turned out the way you wanted . . does it meant that your self-worth is being undermined or have you overly estimated your self-worthiness??

SOooo ...
The equation of: Hardwork = Result does not apply ??
But yet the equation of : Slack and Rot = Failure Happens all the time ??
well i guess for the hardwork to be equal to results happen only in an ideal world that is , , ,

So when people disagree with your belief or doubt/deny your ability and work, are they undermining your self-worthiness?

Oh ya . . . while we were discussing this, we came to discuss about running and racing and here's where we started to digress away from the topic . .

One of my fren was talking about when he was running the best he could and then someone overtook him with a smuck smile, then without thinking my fren simply blew past that same person.

Ok the same happened to me also, hee :) .. This guy was running behind me and told me to "move aside" because he wanted to overtake me . . But i simply did the same as my fren and i blew past that guy and never looked back. Hmmm, while we were discussing this, it dawned on me . . isn't all this about self-worth ?? Correct me if i am wrong, when those guys wanted to overtake me and fren in those two situations . . Is my self-worth being compromised here ?? And hence the need to simply leave them tracking behind me ??

oh ya, back to the digressing point of the debate . . thats when we were toking about human anatomy . . and now the topic was that is human on four's or on two's since the beginning but that didnt last long coz we were onto "fact" and "theoratical fact" . . So is Charles Darwin's evolutionary theory "fact" or "theoractical fact". If you have read his books, he did mentioned alot of "if's" or "would have happened" in his books but never proved his "if's" . . However if he's bold assumptions of "if's" were to happened, then his evolutionary theories would all become a fact . .

and then we moved on to lotsa other stuff . . which i am too lazy to write le . . hahaha. Ok since i began i should end it . . lolz. . . what did we tok about . . hmm ..

ok we then moved on to super-imposing influence and also the term "readiness" to accept wadever stuff, like things, visions and beliefs, concepts and stuff . . thats when we talked about different beliefs and how each of us has our own "sphere" of thoughts and when we are sharing or talking, our "spheres' actually merge or cross path, and if there are differences in the things we share, conflicts happened. And then we tried to talk about the war in middle -east, but that did not end in something convincing . . due to the lack of info mainly . . LoLz

At the end of the day, i enjoyed myself . . its was interesting to engage in stuff like this . . hope to do this more often .. LoLz. oh ya .. this session tooked 3 hours .. Hahaha . . some of the "spectators" left mid-way. LoLz. Ok no one was hurt in the process and no animals were harmed so i think it went out fine . . heeeee :)

oh ya, this week something pissed me off big time . . . because my camp was having the weekly outta camp run at east coast park . . its 16km and i felt is was going to be a good run but last minute i was being tasked to become a marshaller . . oh man, this is crap when i missed the last one they forced me to do a make-up run meaning they wanted me to run right ?? Now now they are depriving me of the chance to clock my 16km . . the army, what the strange place . . Haizz.
PS: and i left the place at around 7pm when all who ran has already left the place . . double signz .
and i have NSmen charging taking place on sat morning . . Sianzz.

now for the highlight . . hahahaha, have lunch with SIS and DAD at Raffles City shopping centre, apparantly they went to collect their new passports and they asked me to join them for lunch. MUM didn't want to travel down so she did not join us. Hahaha, actually DAD wanted a normal meal but eventually due yours sincerely here, managed to pyscho them to go sushi teh for a japanese meal instead. Hahaha, what did we have there . . i had CHar Siew Ramen, Prawn Mentai, Gyuniki wrapped with straw mushroom
( hey i was hungry ok, didnt eat breakfast bec need to rush back to camp for NSmen charging . . LoLz),

SIS and Dad had lesser stuff coz they ate in the morning. They shared my prawn mentai and they got 2 more side dishes . . i think it was prawn mentai sushi and another fish dish . . i duno what its called but it was grilled fish that had alot of roe in the body . . basically the whole fish was filled with roll . . here's some pic of the food i took . .
oh ya . . the spot we sat in was also very good . . v good ambience and design . . hahaha. . i want a spot like that in my house also . . . LoLz

ok here are the pics . . time to drool folks . . hee :) * evil me *


Yummy Char Siew Ramen . . actually i started eating liao . . hahaha


this was the straw mushrooms wrapped in beef, the sauce is to die for . .


Prawn Mentai . . Yummi-licious . . Hee :) Bigggggg. . .


Grilled fish with tons of ROE inside . . wahhhhhh


this was the seat we sat in . . imagine a cushioned round seated with a round table in the middle. when when you looked up . . its was another round roof with dim lights at the circumference and a brighter one in the middle. finally from the edges were the individual straw like stuff was was hanging down from the circumference of the roof which was meant to be like some curtain substitue. . . Nice I tell U . . Wanted to take from outside be it would be strange with all the customer outside .. LOLz

Oh man . . my sis graduations and my AHM is on the same day . . Die la . . have to make some arrangements with my boss liao . HaizZz.

till next time . .
RT

Hi hi . . .

wow its been a long time since my graduations . .

wonder what i have been doing till now ?
well i was defending the nation with my "pens" and "emails" . . LoLz

hmm . . since graduations, nothing major kinda happend . . just a couple of small stuffs . .

Oh ya, i ain't going to australia for my unit's overseas exercise anymore. THis is because someone in my branch, apparantly is quite enthu about it . . and hence i decided to let him take my place instead. So i'll be in singapore during Nov . . felt a bit of pity but hey since he is interested i'll let take my place. Coz i wasn't all too enthu about it either . . so i guess both parties gained something outta it.

finally got started on my model building again after i left it alone. . and once again . . blood was shed and wounds were opened . . LoLz . . haha i am just exaggerating abit la . . LoLz . .
Once its done up i would post it here . . LOLz . .

There was once someone who asked me why i was doing this since i alway get cuts and stuff . . But you can't really tell huh . . its an interest which is something personnal and u hold faith to. . something that you would enjoy doing.

How many times during your lifetime are u doing something that u truly enjoy and at the end of the day when its all done up, the fufilment of having accomplished or completed something is truly indescribable. Seeing from nothing u have done something, well i guess all the blood and pain was worth it.

Sometimes people might question us on our decisions and the worthiness of your decision but at the end of the day, its how you value the outcome of your decision that counts. If you felt that you have gained something outta of it, it was all worth it. A bit self-centred huh . . LOLz

Last sunday, cheng, richard and me wanted to buy some jersey . . but to our "horror" the new liverpool home jerseys aren't ready for release yet. A bit sian lor, in the end only cheng got his MANU jersey. But we are going down this sunday again, TO be amongst the first to wear the red and white stripes of anfield. Had lunch with the guys, and then coffee @ CA at MS. Had ice mocha with ice-cream but i preferred the one they serve at coffee club express, Hee .

Just found out majority of everyone i know is joining ST as a engineer( about 5 leh) . . Hmm . . starting pay ain't bad . . not a bad consideration. But chartered is also on my list also . . LoLz.. we'll see what happens when NoVember comes along where the job seeking would began.

Oh ya, that day's expenses were paid by cheng and richard . . hmm .. kinda heng huh . . but kinda sian since i can't do it bec of my medicore pay ($460 a monthONLY) . . haizz. i am losing out on near 10K++ in my 6 months here in the service. Imagine i was working outside . . i could do so much more, but i can't help it . . so i have to take it in my stride.

This tuesday my branch went on our branch cohesion outing which was something like team building . . basically it was just a lunch outing at FURAMA. We had international buffet and i had tons of sashimi. It didn't have the fishy smell and hence i kept eating and eating, hahaha. Must have gained some weight after that. After that wanted to start the "终极密码" game but the guys wasn't all too interested in it . . well i wun let this chance go huh . . . so i went to get some food and started the game with 3 frens. As time pass, some of the other guys also joined in and soon enuff almost all joined it but there is a couple that shun away from it . . someone just had to start the ball rolling.

had alot of fusion cuisine that afternoon . . . here are some of the funny food we had . .

grilled chicken with alot of tabasco
prawn with tabasco
tomato with salt and pepper
sashimi in chocolate syrup
sashimi with wasabi coated with chocolate
watermelon with salt
honeydew with salt . . .

hahahaha . . was fun thou, although it did tasted strange . . . well i guess it was the highlight of the week . .

oh ya, another "highlight" would be to find out that my new phone's supplier just "fried" my 903SH and its currently back in japan for repairs. Heng i didn't have to pay for it . . coz he wantd to experiment with unlocking the phone for local usage and he used mine to "test water". . so now the wait continues . . again . . Haizzzzzz (>_<'')

well thats about all for the updates . . i think . . i am tired already. TIme to take a nap, HohOhO...


RT